Yes, you have read it correctly! We are having twins!!!! The day began like the two days prior on July 24th, feeling sick and wanting to vomit. I had begun to feel the common pregnancy symptoms of morning sickness on week 6, day 1 of my pregnancy. Today was week 6 day, 3 and I already had the routine of eating crackers in bed with my eyes closed down. I finally emerged out of bed and hopped on the computer. I was interested in reading a fellow IVFer's ultrasound results from the day before. She had had several complications in the past including a blighted ovum (all signs of a pregnancy but no baby in the womb). Unfortunately, history repeated itself! I wrote her a quick message and then decide to read her blog. As I read, I became increasingly upset. Reading the misery she had been through was so hard. Her trials with IVF and the emotions it creates is so hard. When you are going through an IVF cycle, all you want is for others to understand, as I read her blog it pained me to realize just how much she understood. My feelings and emotions were shared. I found myself wishing that she didn't know this unbelievable pain. I cried and sobbed for awhile and then I decide that I needed to do something to get my mind off of her and off of the chances that my pregnancy would result in a blighted ovum too.
I had been, and still am, on extremely limited activities since the transfer. I have a huge list of DON'Ts that I must follow. One very important activity I had given up was cleaning the house. Michael (bless his heart) had vacuumed but the house had not received a good cleaning since before the retrieval on June 23. This include the toilets, which I had become VERY familiar with since I am peeing every two seconds! So, I decided I would clean the toilets. That seemed like a simple task that would not be overly difficult and it would make me feel better. (Yes, I realize that I am probably the only person who enjoys cleaning toilets!!!) So I completed the task and decided to have some lunch and then I would shower. I made some yummy veggies and rice and was just about to click on the TV and enjoy my masterpiece when I saw blood! I quickly put my bowl on the counter and headed to the bathroom. There my nightmare was confirmed...I WAS BLEEDING! I freaked out! I immediately called the IVF clinic and then my friend, Emmy. Michael was just coming home when I dialed Emmy's number. She answered and I could hardly talk. Meanwhile, Michael is calling for me and asking if I was okay, apparently I left some evidence of my findings in the other bathroom. So here I am, Emmy on the phone asking what is wrong and Michael at the bathroom door questioning me. Finally I just opened the door and blurted out that I was bleeding! I felt so empty and couldn't get the thought of Michael and how devastating this was out of my head.
Michael and I got into the car and made our way over to the ER. It seemed like the LONGEST drive EVER!!! When we got there I tried to remain composed but once my name was called I began to lose it again. A few minutes later nurse called us and took us to a more private area. He asked the usual gamete of questions. Turns out he was in the military, like Michael, was a nurse, like Michael wants to be and he and his wife had done IVF, with the first one failing, like us. He and his wife went on to have a healthy pregnancy. I thought in my mind how wonderful God was. He had placed this nurse with us to help us see that everything would be okay. Next we were off to have an ultrasound. The tech was very stoic and smeared the goop on my belly without much conversation at all. At this point, I was so nervous that I was talking enough for all of us. I had never had an ultrasound before, although we were suppose to have our first on that Monday. Once she began, we all saw two black circles on the screen. She kept going back and forth and finally said, "Do you know what that is...It looks like twins!" WHAT?!? No way!!! Michael and I looked at each other and were just quiet with surprise! After a few minutes, she inserted the wand that does ultrasounds vaginally and there we could see, after some time, two tiny heartbeats!!!! I was just in utter disbelief! By the end of the session, she had printed us pictures and gave me a long embrace! Next we had to give blood. While I was getting poked, my daddy-to-be husband was going around and showing all the nurses our beautiful little miracles! After another hour, my blood results were in, the male nurse went over everything with us and we were released and able to go home.
It was crazy day to say the least. Michael and I were overwhelmed with God's gift and shared the joyous news with our family and close friends. We came home and just kept looking at the ultrasound pictures. I was amazed at how a horrible day turned out to be such a happy one!
P.S. And by my Monday appointment, just two days later, we were able to not only see the heartbeats, we were able to hear them too. What a precious moment when the soothing sound of life filled the room. Tears fell from my eyes instantly!!! We had our instant family!!!
9 weeks 5 days
